H.E.L.L.O

hmm...

2010-09-05T08:43:00.000-07:00

hmm..... having mixed feelings now. very xinku. but well. just gonna hang in there (:

what's wrong?

2010-07-25T08:52:00.000-07:00

alright. i know that i am lousy. i am slow. i sucks. yes. i am giving excuses for everything. how i wish i can just leave everything behind and dun think bout it. but i can't. yes. mental only. but how do i mental only when i dun even have the mental? really really really tired. yes. life's always not fair. hate it. it just break my heart. i'm not physically drained but mentally. alone is all i need. its really tough when your heart is tearing yet u still gonna fake a smile infront of everyone and pretend t be alright. how i wish that i could just scream and shout everything off right infront of your face. but does that help? will you ever listen? walking a route that leads t nowhere.

yes. i'm stupid. dunno why. heart's still pounding as fast. dun even know what am i hoping for. seriously. i'm dumb. yes. i am. nothing helps. i dunno why. hate the feeling. i want back the heart that belongs t me! please. give it back t me. need it much now. 3 months can be short can be long. but i dunno how t endure this. i've been trying hard. but. maybe not hard enough i guess. goodnights. *cries*

LOng time uh.

2010-06-25T09:08:00.000-07:00

OMG. its been like months that i have not been blogging uh. oh well. too many things have been happening over the past few months. well. dunno if things have settled down but sigh. woohoo. had a very awesome birthday people. really wanna thanks my family for planning and organising this celebration and also my beloved friends for attending and making the celebration a unforgetable one. SPECIAL THANKS TO XJ! for helping me ya. love you girls (: (pictures can be found on FB) heehee!

woohoo. a dessert treat from Zixin. yummy (: thanks!

screwed.

2010-03-26T10:03:00.000-07:00

sigh. everything's in a mess now. if you guys wanted *** to close down so badly, then just quit. the team don't need people like you guys ya. i really need every single one of you to help bring back the team to the original state again. sigh.

what is this all about? happy happy want us to win medals back. not happy, just throw us aside without asking and knowing what happen. is this what you've learnt and what you are supposed to do? seriously. nothing to say.

you guys are not with us most of the time, don't even really know what's going on. so shut up and put yourself in our shoes and think for us. not think with your ass. F off! brainless creatures. reflect on yourself and get the facts right before commenting on us.

confussss!

2010-03-19T12:00:00.000-07:00

XJ! hope you like the gift from us heee :) sigh, didn't get to see him for like 5 days alr? sigh. and i just feel that things are weird between us now. its too late to regret anything now uh. ah! really miss him much. have been wondering what the hell is he thinking right now? at this moment? maybe he alr forget bout it and here i am being a fool still? hmmmm... ah! just can't get him out of my mind ma! irritating max! alright. just let thing be the way it is, see how things go ya. miss you girls too! Kel, XJ, Cath <3

Uncle Kracker — Smile

You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it's ok, yeah it's ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

confession............

2010-03-16T11:34:00.000-07:00

now, 2.19am and i'm still awake despite having trng tmr at 9am. very nice. misses him much. well... made a confession on sunday night. and of cause failed! lolx. actually this is kind of expected. ya? keep thinking bout him. seriously, i need to keep him out of my mind, before i go crazy! ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! sigh! what's done is done, to let it go and carry on. miracles do happen. no? but its not gonna happen on me for sure. so afraid to see him. dunno why, my heart just don't feel right, i dun feel good :( alright, gonna pack my bag and sleep! trng tmr yo! boring max ma! goodnights!

why...

2010-01-18T09:01:00.001-08:00

great. marathon's over :)guess what, during the 2nd rd i guess, i realised that there's a frog in my boat. yes! a FROG! it still pop its head out lorx. tsk. scared and i jumped out of the boat -.- that happen twice okays. emo. leg and finger cramp all.... resulted in capsizing thousand million times. eventhough i came in last and very slow, but i still enjoy it. hee :)oh oh oh, the portages was horrible ya. but its fun! hiak hiak! angeline finished paddling 27km! wooo, achievement :) now, sprint sets are awaiting for us! die! alright. i know where's my standard. gt to chiong double hard ya. lai! wosh! bleah =p thinking of you!

just another day.

2010-01-07T23:28:00.000-08:00

guess where am i now? yes yes yes, sitting in the school's library happily blogging when i'm suppose to be studying for my ut. bleah. give school a miss today cause was having diarrhoea and bad cough ytd night. thus, woke up late today. cause of ut i have to be in school when i'm not attending school. tsk! came across a chinese song in my iPod the other which i haven't been listening to for a very long time. flashback. hmmm...

my dear friend. don't give up on yourself cause we haven give up on you. i'm always ready and willing to lend a helping hand if you allow me to do so ya :)

the more i stop myself from thinking, the more i will think. so just let it be, don't care much. give up? i know i've said this before and i don't mean what i said. but i miss him more now adays. will be wondering what will he be doing now, have he recover from his illness or getting worse? wanting to see him now and then. wanna see his smile, hear his voice. those msges in my phone.... shall be deleted when i'm ready to forget about all this mess? miss you.

new year new start :)

2010-01-02T06:56:00.000-08:00

new year new start :) wellllll... there's 2 big cut on my leg and abrasion everywhere. what a way to welcome new year. very nice. tsk! have been thinking alot now adays. sigh. team. friends. HIM. i swear all this are random thoughts. many things has happened within this few weeks. up till now at this point of time. i misses HIM lots. will miss him randomly, wonder how's his work, wanting to be by his side taking care of him. sigh. really misses HIM much! however, on the other hand i wanna keep a distance away from him to stop myself from thinking too much. i dunno what i want and what i'm doing. maybe this post may seems nonsense too. happy to see him and wanting to see every now and then. but whenever i saw him, i will tend to "avoid" him. sigh. will be his gudiance angel make sure he stays cheerful always. so long as he is happy, i'll be happy.

* misses him
* misses his smile
* misses his voice
* misses his irritating-ness

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok ....
I MISS YOU!

31st December 2009!

2009-12-31T03:25:00.000-08:00

today is 31st of december, last day of 2009. lots of things have happened within this year. it has been a tough year ya. the team, relationship problem, friends, family. met with different setbacks throughout the entire year. when i am still capsizing feeling demolised, you girls encouraged me. when i hide in the shed crying, breaking down, you girls were there for me. when i broke up, crying and having sleepless nights, you girls were there for me, cheering me up. when i'm so love crazy, you girls endured all my rubbish. because of you girls that i'm still in the team and moving on with my life continue to smile :) lets all train hard and fight hard for the upcoming year, KELROY, XIAOJUN and CATHERINE. thanks, love deep deep :) one for all, four for one. canoeing has really make a huge impact in my stay in RP and prolly my entire life. Adeline, you never fail to cheer me up with your stupid jokes. Sihong, will always remember your naggings. Joanne, your theories had really enlighten me. Fishy, with you around, i will never feel bored and alone. Beverly, you never fail to stay by me and guide me through everything. Hairul, you and your craps does make my day a great one. Yudi, shoulderless boy where's my christmas present uh? Benjamin aunty, it will never be boring trip home with you. Choung Meng, will always remember your encouragement. Yong Ann, will miss arguing with you ya. memories stay. thanks guys. forget about the past, those unhappy memories. look forward to the future, create beautiful memories. jia you and all the best for the upcoming year people :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR :)

sigh!

2009-12-10T09:15:00.000-08:00

having sleepless nights lately. have been thinking quite alot. since its going nowhere, then why shld i hold on to it? my feelings for him is growing stronger and deeper each day. the quality time we spent tgt. wanna give up! back out! and let this feelings go before falling any deeper. dunnnnnooo. really dunno what i want. dunno and dun understand what my heart wants. miss him much. and prolly this might be the last time i'm saying this to you. i love you :) take care!

my heart!

2009-11-25T08:32:00.000-08:00

scare, anxious, worried, this shouldn't be in my head spinning now. all i need to do is to stay calm and focus and everything will be alright ya. its been a long time since i last walked home from chinese garden station. miss that route. like to take a slow walk home at night and enjoy the breeze. but now adays lazy la.

had team dinner at pastamania. yummy! the wosh outside pastamania, i like (Y) :) its just 2 more days dudes! jia you! LAI! love deep deep :)

yes, i know i'm fat! i shouldn't be eating all those shit ya. but i didn't hardcore eat snacks and all. most of the time the things i eat is proper meal leh. alright. whatever i eat is sinful cos i'm fat ya. so i shld go on diet okays. hack trng, faint during trng also don't care (Y) yes i am fat and ugly. i can only drink plain water right! i know i know. one bowl of rice is also fattening for me. i shld only take 3 spoon of rice? not bad right. good idea leh *wink wink* fat girl dun have emotions. fat girl dun have pride. fat girl have no rights to do and say anything. whatever fat girl do is always wrong ya. no wonder my ex dump me la. MUHAHAHAHAHAHx! goodnights!

2009-11-12T08:28:00.000-08:00

spoiled a K2 liangjin ytd during trng :( sigh! sorry guys. sorry girls for not doing good sets. ut was horrible today!
competition + UTs + family = going crazy! arghx :(
hugging teddy to sleep everynight doesn't help much. what i need is a shoulder right now!
feel closer to him now as we spend more time tgt. i like (Y) dun mind things to go on and maintain this way! bleah! XJ,Kel,Cath,Ade,Bev,Jo,Fish,SH! you girls and HIM brighten up my days. thanks girls :) love deep deep!

memories.

2009-11-06T09:25:00.000-08:00

its been around 5 months? was reading my old blog just now. dunno how to explain but there's just this weird feelings inside me. was clearing my wallet and saw those movie tickets. the movies that we've watched before. memories flashed back.

looking at HIM today. i have been thinking for the past few days. sometimes really have the urge to confess. but i know i can't. the feeling of watching him from far, hiding my feelings infront of him and have to act like nothing is really really very tedious and torturing. so afraid that one day where i can't keep it anymore and let it out. arghx, treasure every moment i have! miss him much, really.

random thoughts :)

FM Static - Tonight

I remember the times we spent together
on those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got to New York
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
tonight

I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you sat and told me about your Jesus.
and how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
not having you here...

I sing,
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I sing,
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

(goodnight ***)

down down down!

2009-10-28T10:09:00.000-07:00

baby are you down down down down down. yes i am down, feeling down. dunno why when i saw that 'treasure' box between J and me, i cried. there's just too much memories. it's everywhere. when can i clear all these memories away out of my mind? IDK!
this is really very tedious, i know. each time i see HIM, the deeper i'm falling into it. i'm feeling scare now. the feeling on the other side not yet settled and here comes another mess. what is this, seriously. i have a confession! ILY! do YOU know that i have feelings for YOU?????? do you know that i'm really in this deep shit that i can't get myself out of it! ARGHX! i'm tired. tired from all this. but i will still hang on. i will still support you and care for you. seeing you laugh and smile makes me feel contented :)everything, just for you.
trng was tiring as usual. chest not helping. sigh. old woman liao. have the urge of wanting to see HIM now and can't wait till tmr, yet shy to see him and scare to talk to him. crazy me! just shoot me in my brain la! *bang* drop dead! goodnights :)

missing him much!

2009-10-21T10:00:00.000-07:00

Colbie Caillat - Fallin’ For You Lyrics

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me

I’m trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
and now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you

I can’t stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it
I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)

I’m fallin’ for you

Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh I’m fallin’ for you

so close yet so far...

2009-10-19T01:30:00.000-07:00

BOO! hello. its been a long long time since i wrote my last post horx. have been very busy now adays. school, training, friends and family. 24/7 is not enough seriously. woke up late today at 8am and managed to reach class at 9.10. not late but early! power la! dun ask me how i also dunno why. hee. feeling jealousy. sigh. trng is tough as usual! my chest is killing me! pain max. tired max. FLU! arghx!!!!!! saw some photos today. i know it doesn't concern me but i was quite affected. i dunno why. sigh. yes very affected. there are many a times where i really wanna tell you how much i care bout you. but i know i can't. hate it when you push other guys to me. sigh. the sweet smile from you, i'll always remember it. i wish to see that smile of yours everyday. it brighten up my day. I MISS YOU!

* So Close, So Far *

I wake up all alone, somewhere unfamiliar
Been gone so many days, I'm losing count
When I think of home, I see your face
I know I have to wait...

So close, yet so far
It's tearing me apart
What I would do to be there with you
So close, yet so far
It's tearing me apart
What I would do to be back with you

I miss hearing your laughter
And all the little things
Forgotten what it's like to hold you
Cause where I am right now so unforgiving
Its numbing everywhere

So close, yet so far
It's tearing me apart
What I would do to be there with you
So close, yet so far
It's tearing me apart
What I would do to be back with you

So promise
No matter how long it takes for me to get back to you
You'll wait for me

I promise
No matter how far away I go I'll come back for you
Just wait and see

I miss being at home
I miss your face
Don't think I can wait...

So close, yet so far
It's tearing me apart
What I would do to be there with you
So close, yet so far
It's tearing me apart
What I would do to be back with you

I promise,
It's tearing me apart
No matter how far away I go I'll come back for you
I promise
It's tearing me apart
What I would do
What I would do
What I would do to be there with you....

W25P

2009-10-08T00:05:00.000-07:00

in class now happily blogging. so imagine how slack today's lesson is. but the faci as usual, unclesssssss! what to do SEG ma. tsk. now presentation. room slience can only hear typing of keyboard. not cause we are typing down notes BUT all hardcore msn-ing and fb-ing. hhahahahahx. hmmmm. what RP reminds you of? FB! -.- okays. tired max! later gt the workshop at 7 which means there goes my FREE thursday! ah! this semester's modules all very the interesting and brain cells killing man! ytd's 6p was freaking 50 mins long! chao turtle!deprive me from my sleep! and did a 300 words long RJ. KNS. what is this uh! OMG! PP rejected! shiok max. which means can rework and do a PROPER PP! woots :) alright back to FB. ciaos!

training again :(

2009-09-30T09:48:00.000-07:00

eventhough today's trng is only one evening session, BUT everyone's drained out i think. many didn't perform well today. not up to the expextation. sigh. can't blame la cos we've been training real hard ya. hope things will get better ya. chest pain max today. i need to rest i know. but how long can i rest? sigh. everyone's tired from trng. be it mentally or physically. what can be done now is to pull everyone back on track and give each other support and motivation ya. i can provide free massage! hee. anyone interested? oh ya. forget that my training gear is still in washing machine haven hang up :( i'm like washing clother almost everyday. gt sian not. ah! tmr gt workshop but at 7pm weird timimg. today's trng at mac and the shower there was powderful! love it man! hee. went IMM with Xj and Kelroy after trng today and had subway for dinner! YUMMYLICIOUS!and and went giant get SOME STUFFS then anderson's ice-cream =x oopsy! dun care. been training so hard shld pamper ourself abit horx horx horx! woo :) haven finish my PP leh. die sia. tsk tsk. emo! i like chui lorx. canoeing CMI studies also CMI! sigh! my GPA gt very low one. worried max! not scare cannot graduate, cos if i buck up in 2nd sem still can make it. worried for POLITE. scare cannot take part. dumb me! btw, when i reached home today, my younger brother ran up to me holding on to a packet of biscuit. he saved it specially for me and left. so sweet right :) hehe. alright need to rest liao. wan an! HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY :)

another day of trng down!

2009-09-29T10:23:00.000-07:00

oh well. there's this dunno what workshop today for quite a few IGs and we are one of them. guess this workshop does help me in some way ya :) got really pissed off one today. arghx! okays. chest's really very pain thus skipped the run today. can die sia. today after trng we just changed and headed home cos CANNOT SHOWER! kns! tsk angry! then how are we going to shower from now on sia. irritating! use bottle again? sian. was charging phone in shed and and forget bout it. clever horx. heng i realised it after trng before going home if not chui. walked all the way back to shed just to get my phone :( *yawns* okays damn tired now. goodnights :)

yet another day!

2009-09-27T09:54:00.000-07:00

*credit goes to Xiaojun*

met up with Adeline, Cath, Kelroy and Xj ytd. went haji lane for photo-shoot :) we had a great time ya. heee. the photos are uploaded on FB ya and thanks Xj for the wonderful photos! not forgetting the pretties in the photos =p went sisha after that with Adeline, Cath, Bob, Hairul, Kenneth and his friend. everyone seems to have problem. sigh. how? dunno what to do, dunno how to help. guess i can only be there for them when they need me ya, take care all my friends! seems like canoeist = failure in relationship? is this a curse? sigh.
now what my parents want uh? they are really driving me crazy. they are getting on my nerves! what they want? they really want me to leave the team? F off! why can't they just be more understanding uh! hate it. everyday the moment i step into the house same old shit happen again! its like repeating over and over again. heck la. what can they do? scold me? throw me out of the house? try it man. bring it on! i have been going trng later the whole of last week. sigh. shall really not be late anymore. zhen de bu ker yi leh. start to lose focus during trng. no mood to trng. everything just seems so not right. scared. confussed. stressed. no confidence. lost. the support and motivation i need is no longer here anymore. how long more can i hang on? IDK. smile Angeline smile! everything's gonna be alright ya :)
dunno why, but the things YOU do now does have more impact on me. the things YOU do, words YOU speak. everything means alot to me. looking at that picture just now. thinking of YOU, missing YOU badly. cried. i know this is just so stupid but i dunno why i'm like this too. but ya! sigh.

happy max!

2009-09-25T11:19:00.000-07:00

yooohooo! KW's back. evening's trng has been cancelled today. shiok! but gt to stay behide for juniors trng -.- CM bought speaker to shed. hardcore party lorx. gt happening not. like shiok only. stomach pain max now AGAIN! cos i capsized then drunk LSR water like again. sian. breakdown today. cried. sigh. you girls gave me the power and motivation to hang on, enjoy and suffer tgt. thanks! crew boat today. stressed max. capsized after the 6th strokes. ah! gt emo one! lousy max! tired max. burn out max. sunburn's peeling PAIN max. handsome max. cute max. today like lot of things happen sia. but dunno where to start so shall ignores :) internet connection is damn lousy i swear. argh! pissed! love that ***** to the max! okays goodnights :)

wednesday bluessss!

2009-09-23T09:32:00.001-07:00

angeline is experiencing wednesday blues i guess. sian and moodless today. no idea why. but ya. sigh. but you girls make my day better ya. thanks :) i wanna eat ma ti su like NOW! shall buy some tmr. hee. doing the stupid inventory thingy now -.- sianxxxxxxxxx! feel like skipping trng tmr then MIA and stay home to nua leh. tsk. arghx. not in the mood to blog. k. bye.

Public Holiday!

2009-09-21T09:30:00.000-07:00

Selamat Hari Raya :) SUNBURN FREAKING PAIN MAX! oh well. today's public holiday BUT trng's as per normal. sian max! slept at 4 plus ytd and was freaking late for trng today. oopsy. attendance was bad today. tsk tsk. people, please close your eyes and imagine, back burnt and lie down on the hard cement ground! OUCH! when someone gave me a hard hit on the back! the sensation is WOO LALA~ ~ can you imagine can you imagine! hardcore. saw a baby snake at the enterance of the toilet! eeyer! had steamboat and salmon for dinner with family. happening horx horx horx. GPA's out today. mine is below 2.0 sigh. regret for not attending lessons. regret for being so stupid. regret for being emo and sad over that jerk and neglected my studies. sigh. nvm. shall chiong during semester 2 ya! I WILL BE BACK *wink wink* study hard, play hard, train hard!

HAPPY SUNDAY :)

2009-09-20T09:41:00.000-07:00

HELLO! today. Xj, Kel, Sihong, Ade, Cath and I went sentosa tanning and picnic. gt happening not :) the food prepared by us was delicious! yum yum :) made a heart sharp sandwich for my hubby :) eventhough the bread dun really look like heart but who cares. hubby like can alr. hee. hardcore photo-taking as usual! had a great time. all six of us leave sentosa burnt! damn bad! went vivo see see, look look, shop shop, buy buy ya. after that Xj left for family dinner, Kel went off. left Sihong, Ade, Cath and me. WE WENT TERMINAL 3! WOOHOOO! headed to popeyes for dinner. love the biscuit! sit there chit-chat till 9 plus then go home! saw Yong Ass at JE. gt so coincidental not. well well. lazy to do the laundry sia. TSK! trng tmr sian only -.- OUCH! my sunburn~ *tears in eyes* and and my internet connection freaking lousy max! so wanna throw it away man. KNS! saw tmr's trng programme! CAN I SKIP TRNG TMR? PUBLIC HOLIDAY LEH LEH LEH. well. there's no holidays in our coach's dictionary. so TOO BAD! shall celebrate at LSR tmr then :( okays. mummy and daddy gonna hardcore nag again!

mummy: " AH GIRL AH! early morning go out. late night then come home. think hotel arx!"

ah girl: " trng ma! tsk"

daddy: " but today's public holiday!"

ah girl: " canoeist no holiday one leh, especially our coach :( "

mummy: " then skip one trng will die issit. ur skin will rot and come off issit? uh?"

ah girl: " no -.-"

daddy: " skip trng then"

ah girl: " cannot la"

daddy: " asked your coach to give you your allowance then, be your dad also can!"

mummy: " gt so much time to spend on YOUR canoeing, then no time to do the laundry uh!"

ah girl: " walk to the room, close door! KNN! CB! *hardcore throw pillows and curse*

- the end -

emo!

goodnights :(

oh. its tuesday!

2009-09-15T09:21:00.000-07:00

random post! another day had just passed like that. oh. well. its another week. another week of TORTURE! hee. but i start to like trng! *raise brows* sometimes i just feel that i'm so dumb. dunno why leh. parents get to know bout my lappie thingy. they didn't scold. phew! daddy helped to apply yoko yoko! so sweet :) and and he said he feel sad to see me like being TORTURED everyday! love you daddy! hugs! PP arx PP! haven finish lorx and deadline is 3 weeks later. really dead sia. tsk! my read between the lines skill still not very the good yet arx, must practice more. SHIT! KELROYWEE just shared SOMETHING with me. happy max! am chio-ing! hee :)love bubble tea. love my girls. love the *guys* love my wife. love trng????? dun think so! feel like eating egg tart yo! hmmm... what's for dinner tmr? any ideas anyone? wah! press the wrong key NEARLY delete this post sia. tsk tsk. mummy saved a bowl of soup for me! yummy. why today everyone like suddenly so nice uh? got what motive uh uh uh. better beware! hohohohohoohohohx. body like tearing apart lorx. can dislocate anytime i guess. haiyo! tsk tsk. *yawn* HATE "KIWI" muhahahahahahahahhahahahahax. jersey still in washing machine. lazy to do laundry leh. sigh. this is madness. cute max. goodnight :)

Loves Today :)

2009-09-10T08:36:00.000-07:00

ytd was 09.09.2009! cool! so nice that there are 9 girls. thus, we had a mini party after trng ya. all 9 of us wear our P.E shirt lorx. funny max! photos are being uploaded in FB ya. so check it out. hee. saw his mum again lorx this morning. ignores. but dunno why when she walked pass me and ignores me, i suddenly felt very sad. used to be so close like mother and daughter. but now like stranger. dunno leh. wasn't thinking much but sad lorx. was kinda affected. quite emo in the morning ya. ah!~ feeling much better during training. K4 with Yong Ann, Tomi and Nic today. was actually feeling very shiok paddling with the guys ya. BUT everything was screwed thanks to ME! sigh! try harder next time ba angeline :) enjoy ~ happy max! goodnights. xoxoxo.

Accidentally In Love!

2009-09-08T09:57:00.000-07:00

walau eh. forget my password sia, can u imagine! tsk. okays okays. gt the kanoe sports shirt, NICE :) hee. trng as usual lorx. today technical, i dun mind doing this everyday lorx. but FAT HOPE. if we didn't get tortured, we are not called RPC *wink* hee. oh had mac for dinner! YUMMY! actually gt lots to blog but i forget what to blog liao. so YA nvm lorx. my huuby's back from genting! hee. miss her lots :) oh oh oh! kanna bitten by XJ and KELROY ytd! OUCH. PAIN. BLUEBLACK. i wanted to sleep awhile before gym, but in the end was rolling here and there lorx. AH! was quite hyper today! hee. happy max max max ultra max! ultimate :) *raise brows* try to reach out to you touch my hand !!!!!!!!! goodnights :)

tired max!

2009-09-07T10:14:00.001-07:00

wooo. its been a week since i last touch my lappie. thanks to TRAINING! tsk. had been training like crazy i guess. last saturday very happening ya. trng in the morning, team lunch for coach Kaiyang's farewell at sakura and went for Sophia's birthday-cum-farewell party with the girls ya. its monday again. which means trng AGAIN! 3 sessions. AAAHHHHHHHHHH! *body's calling for help! SOS!*
the moment i turned my head away, i start to miss him. i've been thinking of him the whole night. hmmm. that kind of eye contact we have. its nice i thought :) can't wait to see him again :)
now that there's no weekend trng, everybody hardcore party-ing and enjoying sia. let me see. hmmm... this coming sunday going for the Mizuno run thingy, next saturday party-ing with the guys then sunday going tanning with the girls and the very last weekend before school starts might be going pula ubin! happening horx! my pocket also very happening. tsk. DIDN'T RECIEVE ANY CALLS FROM B&J! EMO ): AH! anyone wanna be a kind soul and give me money to spend? *thinking of my DAD* hee! shall upload the photos other time cos DAMN TIRED NOW! *YAWN, mouth opening wide wide*
Goodnights :)

P.S -> XJ and Kel thanks for the friendship band ya. like it lots :) <3

emotional day!

2009-09-01T09:10:00.000-07:00

well, had a great morning today ya :) cute max! really bth lorx. *blush blush* after first session of water trng, KW announced the races for POLITE. i might be going down in K4 with the juniors. i cried. scared i'm not up to standard. stressed. i really wanna earn something for myself, for the team. whatever it is, shall train hard, 101% and do my best! no regrets ya! next water session starts at 3pm so went for lunch. for second session, went K2 with Kelroy. stressed and scare ya. really damn stress i swear. cos maybe i'm too used to K1, being alone free and easy ya, that's why. AHHHHHHHH! crew boat scary! Cath went down and look for us today. and and and SHE BOUGHT A RING AND PROPOSED TO ME! awwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! sweet max! so touched :p thanks hubby. loves!

check this out! my new havaianas yo! woots ;) chio TTM right! hee. chosen by Xj and Adeline!

Gary gave me 2 stars. looks like ear-ring horx. maybe can try wearing it. hee.

and and, Xj treat me bubble tea today! hee. thanks everyone. xoxoxo :)

Just for entertainment ya :) enjoy!

*Best In Me* (editted)

From the moment I met you, you are so cute to me
You touched my hand
And my heart went pumping face when blushing red
I dont ever wanna lose this feeling
I dont wanna spend a moment apart

Chorus:
cos you melt my heart everytime, like no-one else can do
Thats why Im by your side, and thats why I love you

Every day that Im here with you
I know that it feels right
And Ive just got to think of you every day and every night
And I want you to know that I love you
It just had to be you and me

Chorus...

And everytime when I get to see you, my heart will just keep pumping so fast

cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
Thats why Im by your side
cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
Thats why Im by your side, and thats why I love you
cos you bring out the best in me, like no-one else can do
Thats why Im by your side, and thats why I love you

bring them back, please!

2009-08-30T09:53:00.000-07:00

that smile of his, is in my heart always. how i wish he's with me now. going through everything with me. guiding me along. be my light when i'm alone in the dark. but i know its not going anywhere. its impossible. maybe if i stop thinking of him for just 1 min, i might feel better? guees the only thing i can do now is to let things remain the way it is :)

how i wish things were like before. so pure and innocent. i seriously dunno what to do. dunno how to help. all i can do now is to lend a listening ears. remember, i'm always here, 24/7 :) msn, sms, call, anything! all i wanna see is that smile on everybody's face again. xoxoxo

Training again!

2009-08-27T10:10:00.000-07:00

*editted by Xiaojun*

da jia hao! three sessions per day for trng starts today! chui max! damn damn tired! plus wasn't feeling too good this morning when i woke up, physcially and emotionally. due to PMS? no idea. hee. guess tmr have to drag my feet to trng again! bleah. hmmmm. dunno why when i heard that he's party-ing tonight, i felt so uneasy ya. what is he doing now? is he gonna be alright? miss him. haven been really spending time with my friends and teammates apart from trng ya.

FOR XIAOJUN, know you have been feeling down now adays. hope that bubble tea (a bit the too anyhow i know) will cheer you up abit. hee :) 1 fishball, 2 fishballs ......

FOR KELROY, take care of your knees horx! will buy you bubble tea soon. hee :)

FOR CATH, she's my husband alr ya. so people shhhooooo! miss ya hubby. hee :)

FOR YCY, hello! meet up soon horx. like didn't see you for million years! kinda miss ya :)

FOR MYSELF, go and sleep now!!!!!!!! goodnights :)

will it be possible?

2009-08-26T10:29:00.000-07:00

love is very special and its very fragile too! accompany Kelroy ytd night after trng together with Xj and Joachim. Cheer up babe :)

holiday trng starts tmr! die lorx.

missing him much now. knowing its impossible yet still wanna dig my head in and keep falling deeper and deeper. dunno why i somehow feel that HE and i are drifting apart. so afraid to lose him. for the very 1st time i'm crying because of HIM. there's so much i wanna tell you. I LOVE YOU :)

i am irritating and annoying!

2009-08-23T09:26:00.000-07:00

okays okays i am back :) was busy with trng and UTs that's why like MIA ya. now at this time still studying for UT lorx. last 2 UTs alr. chiong arx! oh and holiday's trng not very the good horx. eventhought there won't be any weekend session, BUT there'll be 3 sessions per day for 4 of the weedays! chui max! had time trial on T1 on sat. not a very good one. coach was disappointed with us ya. its okays! RPC we will grow stronger as a team ya! no worries :)

i have thought for a very long time is HE a replacement? or am i using HE to forget about him. i can comfirm that i am not using HE to forget about him ya. i have let go of the past alr. the *memories* folder has been created and the content inside is full. it will be kept, locked and everything shall come to an end, finally!and yes i have fallen for HE. is it a good thing or a bad thing? IDK! but i know for sure that its impossible between us. so things shall just remain as it is. i am contented. my friends, teammates, canoeing, family and ..... HE's face, smile and everything keep running in my mind :)

haven been taking bus back home with XJ for quite sometime alr and and i miss you girls :) XJ, Kel and Cath! take good care horx and lets all trng tgt ASAP! really miss you girls much much much <3

HELLO

2009-08-05T20:57:00.000-07:00

hi people, WELCOME TO MY NEW BLOG :) it's still under construction la. so stay tune for more excitment! woots!